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where do I run when everything feels heavy?

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I kept searching for an exit, only to realize the only way out was in I just recently came across a post asking "Where do I run when everything feels heavy?" That question hit me like a wave one day: When do I run when everything feels so heavy? It wasn’t just exhaustion—it was the realization that no matter how far I went or how hard I tried to outrun the pain, I always ended up face to face with myself. There was no hiding left, no comforting distraction to cling to. Just me, sitting in the middle of the weight I could no longer pretend wasn’t there. And suddenly, the question changes: not “Where do I run?” but “What am I running from?” And most of the time, the answer is: yourself. The pain you never processed. The grief you buried beneath productivity. The versions of you that you abandoned while trying to be okay. You realize that the escape isn’t real because no matter where you go, you’re still there—still hurting, still hoping, still waiting for someone e...

i'm sorry for being distant, i've been struggling

Sometimes distance isn't silence—it's survival. And reaching back out is the first brave step toward healing I didn’t plan to drift away. It started slowly—missed messages, unanswered calls, postponed plans—and before I knew it, I was wrapped in silence, not just with others, but with myself. I kept telling myself I was just tired, just busy, just needing a little space. But deep down, I knew it was more than that. Something in me was unraveling, quietly, beneath the surface. The days blurred together, and even the things that used to bring me joy started to feel distant, like echoes from a version of me I couldn’t quite reach anymore. The hardest part was not knowing how to explain it. There was no clear reason, no dramatic event to point to. Just a quiet, persistent weight that made everything feel harder than it should. So instead of reaching out, I retreated. I told myself people wouldn’t understand, that I’d be a burden, that it was better to wait until I felt like “myself...